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I made this song a while back. It’s a pretty nice one on acoustic guitar. You might have heard it while on hold for HostDime.com back in 2004-2008.

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“The freedom of experience is the adventure of Being…You can’t experience this wonder, through, if you hold onto a particular identity and frame of reference, if experience continues in its rigid habitual grooves. Wonderment arises when you are open to something that is mysterious, new, and fresh, when your old knowledge is completely suspended for the moment.”

This is what I want. I can somehow tell that my own judgmental stances are keeping me from enjoying my life like I used to. I hear something, and it reminds me of something that embodies trite, old, stale, overdone, etc…I don’t have time for it. There is so much for me to process in this life, I must filter out the shit. So I filter out the crap music…and for good reason…but there are likely many things I throw out…many babies thrown out with the bath water. A song reminds me of  Creed, or sanitized adult contemporary crap (Michael Bolton), or…so many lame things…and I can’t listen to it. I stopped listening to songs that were good even, but I didn’t want their influence corrupting my artistic vision of the type of music I wanted to create.

So many experiences ….

Page 73 – Spacecruiser Inquiry – By A.H. Almaas

1. What kind of self inquiry have you done? I’m not sure. The pointers I was given didn’t point me in a direction I felt comfortable with. It seemed as if it wanted me to question everything I know, but I expected a trajectory, a path, not just throwing me into nothing and…no training wheels.
2. Did you like doing it? I couldn’t do it. I didn’t know where to start, what was the 2nd step, the 3rd step. Don’t get me wrong. I didn’t expect to have my hand held, but what the fuck am I supposed to do? I had no clue what I was inquiring into?
3. Was it revealing, satisfying, challenging, disturbing, or something else? Frustrating.
4. How do you see your concerns, your capacities, and your limitations in relation to inquiry? Fuck you.
5. How fixed is this knowledge about yourself? Lots of stuff is fixed. Whatever. How is this fucking inquiry into past inquiry attempt supposed to fucking help me? How am I supposed to get beyond that by talking about past failed inquiry?
6. How does that knowledge affect your experience of inquiry now and your openness to pursuing it further? I don’t think I’m going to make it past 5 minutes at attempting. I think I’m going to expect it to just fall flat…no progress. Just this talk about not expecting anything, not having beliefs, etc. etc. asking yourself about those…but not really getting anywhere. Not realizing something deeper than where I’m at right now.

I was watching ‘The Listener’, which is a cancelled NBC drama which is currently available on Hulu, and this song came on. It’s a really great song, I recommend that others check it out.

I must say I love Robots in Disguise, an electro punk band from England.

http://www.robotsindisguise.co.uk/

I got turned onto them by their single ‘Turn It Up’, which I discovered on Last.fm.

I decided it was time that I give the other songs a listen on Grooveshark, and I’m finding that they’re not just an underground one hit wonder. I urge anyone who loves electronic pop with a punk/rock edge, check this girl group out.

For those out there that are familiar with the song Under the Milky Way by The Church, which is definitely one of the highlights of the Donnie Darko soundtrack (that’s how I became aware of the track), I recently discovered that the same band recently covered ‘Disarm’ by The Smashing Pumpkins.

“Education is what remains after one has forgotten everything he learned in school.” – Albert Einstein

“It is a miracle that curiosity survives formal education.” – Albert Einstein

“Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught. ” – from Intentions by Oscar Wilde

Yesterday I was really hungry after band practice, as I hadn’t ate anything in hours. I was house sitting, and it turns out that I just didn’t have something quick to whip up at home to satiate this hunger…so I decided to eat out. Being that I’m trying to save money, I decided that I could only justify fast food. The funny thing is that I end up pigging out on fast food, so it ends up being $8.00+ for the meal I eat. I might as well just eat healthy and feel satiated.

Anyway, I ate so much Taco Bell because I was still hungry after eating the first three items I ordered (soft taco supreme, burrito supreme, volcano taco), that I went back for more (another volcano taco, chalupa, fresco soft taco). I don’t think the weed I smoked helped either. I justified this behavior though because I quit smoking cigarettes, which are really my vice.

Well, this wasn’t a good idea. I went home and sat down, and started to have a headache beneath the warm satiated blood sugar spike which caused me to feel like taking a nap. I just sat through this thinking it would go away, but hours later while I was sitting and watching Greys Anatomy episodes the headache got worse.

It got so bad that I stopped watching the computer screen because I figured the slight strain on my eyes was making the headache worse. I drank water, and even forced myself to puke…as all that Taco Bell was surely proving to be toxic in some matter. This led to me laying down and falling asleep for a short period (20 minutes) when the headache wanned, but then I woke up again and still had this killer headache.

I ended up feeling nauseas and needing to puke again. I did this and still tried to rest, but I wasn’t sure why the headache wasn’t going away. I figured it was because I hadn’t ate in hours, and even though the Taco Bell was toxic and some was still in my system, I needed something to replenish some blood sugar. I made some oatmeal and had a couple spoonfuls before going to bed.

I didn’t take any aspirin or ibuprofen during this time because there was none, and driving down to the store seemed like it would make the headache much worse. Luckily I was able to go to sleep and wake up with only a minor headache kind of beaming in the background of my consciousness.

I came into work feeling crappy, but the ibuprofen and coffee helped. I think I’m going to stay away from weed and binging on fast food from now on. I hope this attitude lasts.

I just want to let everyone on the Internet know that the Hulu Desktop application rocks. Seriously.

I have an iMac, which came with a remote controller for use with FrontRow, a multimedia viewer which uses a 10-foot user interface, and came packaged with Mac OSX when I bought the computer. I’ve been using Hulu Desktop for a while with my Mac now and it works great. It ties into my Hulu account and lets me setup subscriptions to the shows that I like, so I can quickly navigate to view the latest Lost episode of season 6, or even watch clips of the latest Saturday Night Live episodes.

I just sit back in my bed and watch without having to be face-to-face with the computer screen, which is great because I’m face-to-face with a computer screen all day at work. Sure, I should be out jogging or something, but if I want to unwind with a comedy on-demand, this is great. Oh yeah, I don’t have cable also….I can’t justify paying for cable and Internet at the same time, so this is a great. I can’t wait for all the networks to come onboard and offer subscriptions to view shows online, with very minimal commercial interuptions.

If you don’t own a Mac, don’t think that you’re left out. The Hulu Desktop FAQ states “…Hulu Desktop will work with Apple and Windows Media Center remotes. Remotes that are compatible with Windows XP and Vista can be purchased at most electronics retailers.”

I just wanted to quickly note that Burger King coffee is horrible. It always tastes burnt. I don’t know if it’s the coffee maker, or if they’re still using that frozen concentrated coffee crap. But it sucks, I don’t understand how people put up with it.